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Jealousy

Tuesday, December 1, 2015 9:04 PM


 I guess this word is not stranger to most of the girls, bet they came across this word several times.  
Well, jealousy is normal in relationship. We all came across situation whereby your partner is talking or hanging out with some other girls that you don't really fancy about. 
My boyfriend has quite a handful of female friends, while on the other hand I don't. So most of the time I'm the one being jealous instead of him. 
We have been together for about 3.5 years, and I'm still having jealousy problems. Whenever he talks to girls or hang out with them, I tend to have this uneasy feeling within me. I just dislike my boyfriend hanging out with other female friends. And I know that's being very selfish of me. He knew about it, cause I always tell him that I don't like it. Okay, not all his female friends, just 1 or 2 that are really kind of an eye sore. 
Reason why I always have jealousy problem is because I'm not perfect. Anyone could replace me easily. I fear that he may find someone who he can clique better with, someone who is better looking, fitter looking than me that could steal his heart. I'm not saying I don't trust him, I trust him but I don't trust the girls around him. Anything could happen right? Even though we have been together for so long. He could be bored of seeing me and may want a change of flavour? It's those fear that keeps me having this uneasy feeling whenever he hangs out with his female friends.


Sometimes I really want to spike him as well by hanging out with my guy friends but sadly, I don't have much. Those that I have are mutual friends as him, so he doesn't care about it since he knows them. My aim to find one guy best friend in Uni kind of fail, and I've given up. Not the most sociable person ever, it's hard for me to make friends.
Until recently, I kind of realize that I'm being really childish by restricting or discouraging my boyfriend from hanging out with his female friends.Well, if someone really want to steal him away from me and he blindly follows, then so be it. This proves that his heart is not standing strong with me, and what's the point of continuing this relationship? Preventing so much doesn't help, it's up to individual's determination to sustain this relationship. If it's meant to be, we will be together in the end.