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Game OverTuesday, May 15, 2012 7:48 PMI swear I never thought we will ever break up because you gave me trust and confident that this relationship will last long. You tried to clique with my family, you introduce me to your friends, you said you were afraid that you are too possessive, afraid that you will lose me after I told you about my admirers, you thought of us getting married in future.. It's really those little things which make me think our relationship will last long but I guess I was too naive or is it just typical things guys do? I don't know.. Haha, maybe is because no other guys has ever said/done this to me. My ex didn't, that's why.. I really place all my bets in this relationship but I guess thing doesn't always goes in my way.I've cried almost every night when going to bed ever since that Seoul Garden day. You know why? Cause I think about us every night before I go to sleep and thinking that we are coming to an end, it hurts like shit. Sometime when I really miss you during the "break" or "the day you treated me coldly" period, I re-read all our conversation in whatsapp, msn and message. I still have all the messages we used to sent before you got your iPhone. It was incredibly sweet (: Haha, I guess you should know how I feel because you experienced the same thing before. I'm feeling exactly like how you feel when she broke up with you. During the break period, seeing you so so sick and all I do was sit down and do nothing. That feeling sucks alright! I've tried, I've tried to help you by buying you herbal tea and I was praying that you get well soon cause it hurts to see you get so sick yet I can't be at your side comforting and taking care of you. That period of time was horrible! When you text me that you were coming over to my house to talk to me before The Avengers movie, the moment I've received your text, I was smiling all night because I was so happy that you finally texted me even though it's not something sweet or what. But I'm just glad I still talk to you. I was so excited that I couldn't sleep and woke up super early awaiting for your arrival. Hahaha! But you didn't make it because you were sick and I was sad again. And there's another time when you said you wanna come over my house on Friday night or Saturday morning to pass me something... I waited for your message but there was none. From that day onward, I've learnt not to have any expectation from you because I only get back disappointment. And you probably know why I seldom go for lunch with Tetris siao right? Yup, because of you. Even though I miss you like shit, really like shit, I still don't want to see you because.. I don't know.. it's like you're mine but I can't touch it so what's the point.. It only makes me more heartache :( I've really enjoyed the past close-to-2 month with you, it's incredibly awesome <3 I will definitely miss you, I will miss eating lao ban with you, I will miss going to your house, I will miss taking bus with you and you sending me home, I will miss you playing guitar, I will miss working with you, I will miss your random stare, I will miss hugging you (definitely), I will miss lying on your shoulder, I will miss watching movie with you, I will miss holding hands with you, I will miss whatsapp-ing you, I miss all those sweet messages you used to text me before u had iPhone, that sudden love, I will miss it.. In short, I will miss us.... But it's weird, there is some sort of anger within me whenever I see you.. and your tumblr. All the things you reblogged are about first love. I know you still miss her & love her, go get her back please! I know it's hard and you failed terribly, but keep trying! Just don't ever give up on your dream! She is perfect for you (: P.S You are definitely a thousand time better than my ex, I can never be like her.. 
Is this how you felt? You were desperate for love and I came, it was all by impulse?
P.S Tell me something I don't know
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