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Zero confidenceSunday, July 29, 2012 8:30 PM
Confidence is never in my dictionary, I really have no confidence at all #weirdbuttrue. Regardless is it about looks, body, studies, baking and I don't know what else, it's zero. My boyfriend keep telling me I look pretty, i'm not ugly, i'm not fat but I THINK I AM! I swear I'm damn fat, been baking a lot every since this last year semester 2 and yeah, my weight keep rising like really a lot! And how on earth do I look pretty? Come on, there are tons of girls out there who look gorgeous, comparing me to them.. I'm consider nothing..
I don't know why do I feel this way. Sometimes, I feel that i'm not talented in baking. Today I attempted to make profiteroles and I fail terribly :( Wei Ting managed to make a perfect batch for her first attempt and I failed terribly for my first attempt. I feel demotivated and extremely useless! Maybe I'm really just not the baking talent and everyone keep calling me Executive pastry chef (EPC), i feel extremely stress because I'm really not that good at baking. I self learn everything so my baking are not really that excellent as it looks. Sometimes I think I'm quite dumb and useless, yeah and I wonder what my boyfriend see in me. I'm weird, I hate a lot of things (butter, cinnamon, vegetables, sashimi and I eat strawberries (as fruit) but not strawberry products like strawberry ice cream, strawberry drinks etc) So yeah, I'm weird and... urgh!!! I'm an Alien!
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