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TROLLING on TinderTuesday, December 1, 2015 9:27 PMEveryone knows Tinder is an online dating app, or some know it as to look for sex partners. So my boyfriend downloaded Tinder on his phone, and my first reaction was WTF? Is he for real? I was mad because why do you need a dating app when you're attached with ME? I consulted him immediately, and he told me he use this app to troll girls together with is best friend, K. K apparently uses my boyfriend profile ( pic and name ) to disturb girls that super liked them back. Disturbing I mean like talking real dirty, almost the intention of asking for sex or meet up. He told me the mastermind was K and he didn't type those messages. K uses his account to disturb other girls. Btw, K is attached as well. I DON'T GET WHY ATTACHED MEN LIKE TO DO SUCH THING, SHAME ON YOU! THINK FOR YOUR GIRLFRIEND WILL YA? It's pissing me off so much even though I've told my boyfriend that I really don't like the idea of it. Why can't K use his own account to disturb other girls? Why use my boyfriend's account? For fuck seriously Well my boyfriend tried to make me feel better by changing his profile picture to a picture of us. Maybe his intention was harmless, maybe he really just want to troll other girls. But I just can't help it when my boyfriend (or K) is talking dirty to other girls. Like my boyfriend's profile picture is there and he's talking. You just help but to think it's him typing. I don't know who is typing what but it's just unbearable to even read it. IT DISGUST ME MUCH. I was so pissed that I went to download Tinder as well to see him any guys hit on me and talk dirty. Yeah, few guys did super liked me, but I have to liked back in order to start a conversation. I saw a few good looking ones and have the super strong urge to super liked back, but something seems to be stopping me. It's like I'm doing something against my conscience so I didn't like in the end. After a few days, I deleted the app. It's disgusting how it reminded me of what he have done. I don't blame him but more on K. If not for his stupid idea, I wouldn't have been so mad. Totally change my impression towards him, disgusting jerk. Not only you dirty talk to those girls, but also ignore how your girlfriend will feel. It's like doing those sex phone calls where people call to hear those sexual talking and noises. Whenever you type down those dirty talking, don't you think about your girlfriend? Your trolling may have gone too far. Yes I'm traditional, I definitely cannot tolerate such nasty behaviour Jealousy9:04 PMI guess this word is not stranger to most of the girls, bet they came across this word several times. Well, jealousy is normal in relationship. We all came across situation whereby your partner is talking or hanging out with some other girls that you don't really fancy about. My boyfriend has quite a handful of female friends, while on the other hand I don't. So most of the time I'm the one being jealous instead of him. We have been together for about 3.5 years, and I'm still having jealousy problems. Whenever he talks to girls or hang out with them, I tend to have this uneasy feeling within me. I just dislike my boyfriend hanging out with other female friends. And I know that's being very selfish of me. He knew about it, cause I always tell him that I don't like it. Okay, not all his female friends, just 1 or 2 that are really kind of an eye sore. Reason why I always have jealousy problem is because I'm not perfect. Anyone could replace me easily. I fear that he may find someone who he can clique better with, someone who is better looking, fitter looking than me that could steal his heart. I'm not saying I don't trust him, I trust him but I don't trust the girls around him. Anything could happen right? Even though we have been together for so long. He could be bored of seeing me and may want a change of flavour? It's those fear that keeps me having this uneasy feeling whenever he hangs out with his female friends.  Sometimes I really want to spike him as well by hanging out with my guy friends but sadly, I don't have much. Those that I have are mutual friends as him, so he doesn't care about it since he knows them. My aim to find one guy best friend in Uni kind of fail, and I've given up. Not the most sociable person ever, it's hard for me to make friends. Until recently, I kind of realize that I'm being really childish by restricting or discouraging my boyfriend from hanging out with his female friends.Well, if someone really want to steal him away from me and he blindly follows, then so be it. This proves that his heart is not standing strong with me, and what's the point of continuing this relationship? Preventing so much doesn't help, it's up to individual's determination to sustain this relationship. If it's meant to be, we will be together in the end.  A little too sickThursday, September 24, 2015 11:57 PMI've been suspecting for a period of time and only decided to question today. Woman's intinct is unquestionably accurate, it's like in our blood. I can totally feel it. I'm not blaming you but at the end of the day, I want you to think. If you can't stand seeing me for consecutive days for several hours, how are we gonna spent the rest of our lives together. I'm not demanding that we should see each other every single days but if you and I have nothing to do, might as well hang out together. At least we have a company to talk to.Think about coming home everyday to see my face, waking up and going to bed seeing my face, spending your weekends at home with me and all, can you take it? If the thought of it makes you sick and irks, then what's the point? Why stick to someone when you think you can't look at her for life? Thought of the day And I really wish someone could be there for me not as when I want but to be there when I'm alone and needed company. Someone who initiate the meet up like, " Hey you're alone? Come up to my place, at least you have a company." I know you're free and so am I, so what's the hesitation?
SensitivitySunday, June 14, 2015 10:25 PMSituation: Yiquan was telling me that tomorrow he is meeting Sherye (close female friend) and Kelvin (best friend) together. Together. Really? Like when Sherye barely met Kelvin for 3 times? They are not even close at all and why do you even put them together to meet? Isn't it awkward or probably Sherye can click so much better than me with him. Don't bullshit about time management saying that you are in the tight spot whereby both of them really want to meet you. I understand you haven seen Sherye for quite some time but what about Kelvin? You just met him today...Tight spot? I guess it's call priorities and management. You can meet Sherye in the morning to late afternoon and Kelvin in the evening when he can fetch you to the airport. You guys at least able to spend a good 4 hours together before we fly off to Hong Kong okay. I don't get it why must you put them together. Is it necessary that both of them have to spend the whole with you? I'm not only annoyed by that but the fact that he wants to let Kelvin meet Sherye really makes me feel even annoyed. Like why is he trying to bring his best friend close to a normal friend? I'm your girlfriend and you don't even try to bring me closer to your friends for the past 3 years. Since when you ever initiate an outing between me, you and kelvin? SINCE WHEN? Yes we do have a meal together but that was coincidental when just nice we were together. Oh so what are you trying to say now? You wanna bring your close female friend closer to your best friend? So next time 3 of you cna hang out together? I was suppose to be in that positition! I'm your girlfriend to flaunt with, not hiding in the house and not show it off. Fuck this shit. I'm probably gonna be a stranger to all your friends if we ever get married and 30 years down the road, I will still be a stranger to all your friends. And kelvin would probably be closer to Sherye instead of me. I clearly understand that i'm making a mountain out of a molehill, I know I am but I just to rant out the annoying-ness in me. How irritating things are! I hate it when we are "fighting" over small stuff which is always started by yours truly zzz. Furthermore it's on the day before we are flying together, hate it hate it hate it. Hypophrenia; Rubbish talksSunday, May 24, 2015 10:21 PM I think probably every human being get to experienced this feeling once in a while? And I guess mine was today! Actually I think it's probably the cause of my PMS as well, and my boyfriend... accumulate accumulate accumulate which ended up feeling like this :( Times when I feel like this, I like to wander around alone. I don't wanna see yiquan for awhile (not forever), you know.. just avoid him for a while and get some emo time so I didn't even tell him that I was heading out. I get myself changed for the longest time. Hate my wardrobe cause I have nothing nice to wear and I couldnt afford to get any new clothings. That's utterly sad... I look myself in the mirror trying to get a better style with my hair and I just hate it. It's frizzy, out of shape, puffy and it's just fugly zz.I find myself super ugly at that point :'( I don't know where to go cause it's a Sunday, all the parks and reservoirs will be packed with people and I want somewhere quiet. So I ended up taking a long bus ride to I don't know where. I mean I know where the bus goes but I just couldn't decide where to alight. Ended up at IKEA which is packed with people. Casually just walking around, looking at things, bakewares, human, flowers, frames, lights. Walk to ABC market to grab a drink for the freaking hot weather. I took another long bus ride to meet yiquan for dinner. For once he made a decision on where to have dinner, but still... the choice is still quite cock. He does make me feel better afterall <3 He never fail to compliment me and squeeze my fat cheeks every time he sees me. Though some times he calls me fat *stare* but I love it when he cover his hand around my mouth so that I can breathe in some yq's oxygen in me hehehe! Today is just moody and restless, so tired. Mentally exhausted i don't know why. He sent me to bukit batok though i wish he could send me to the door step but it was good enough. He has made progression. How I wish this could happen more often, more of the little gestures like during our honeymoon period :( It's been so long since he have sent me home to my door step.. Not even on valentines, birthday or anniversaries. I can't deny some of the weekends i really don't feel loved at all. Yes, he may be telling me he love me 24/7, but that's only verbally. I mean some weekends la, not each time. I really don't know whether is it because we have been together for so long that we are too comfortable with each other's company that we don't bother creating sparks in our relationship. I'm so tired right now, I could possibly be over thinking right now due to my PMS. I really miss our honeymoon period :( P.S I still love you to death, don't come telling me that I don't want you any more. Night changesMonday, March 16, 2015 1:44 PM It's barely a week since you have left for Taiwan, here I am thinking of you like crazy. This made me realize how important you are in my life and I really need you in my life. You and I have created so much memories be it good or bad, those are the best days of my life. 10/20 years down the road, I want to be holding your hand and look into your eyes and say 'I love you'. #mygoals As for now, I'm patiently waiting at home, counting down to the days you're coming back home. 7 /21 days What does a girl sayWednesday, January 29, 2014 9:47 PMHave you ever dislike someone so much that you just hate her existence? What you want to do most is to avoid seeing her, yet? I think i'm so fated with her to the extent I kept seeing her everywhere in school and it's getting a little annoying. Like seriously, I just don't wanna get into trouble because I don't know what I'll do one day if I really can't stand her and my hand will just go to her face. I hate people who gets so close with my boy, only selective people. Yes, I'm not being fair. I picked on who I like, who I don't. And for those I don't, I will always picked on you, you will always be an eye sore to me.
You know girls being girls, you dislike means you dislike. You don't need a specific reason why you dislike the person. You just don't, don't continue questioning. It's just a girl's thing. Especially when it involved your boyfriend with that girl, omg your hatred level towards the girl will just increase rapidly by 500%! No joke, girls are very sensitive to such thing. Maybe it's something to do with security, you're just afraid that you lose the people you love hence you became over protective and eventually it turns into hate somehow.
This is a bad habit people, please do not learn unless you are a girl then this is a perfect excuse! Hahaha
Hungry Monster9:20 PM
I get hungry so easily recently
              Him :)Wednesday, July 3, 2013 12:26 AMWhere should I start? Sometime I just miss him so much even though I just met him yesterday but at night, I anticipate his reply to my messages, anticipate to hear his voice over the phone, anticipate to hear him say I love you, hear him call me baby, hear him tell me how adorable I am, hear him say good night. Yes we do this on a regular basis but I'm not sick of it! I'm eager to hear his voice, see his face and hug him. Sometime I miss him so much I would cry over the phone though I just met him yesterday. I questioned myself sometime, "why am I crying when I just met him yesterday?"It's silly, but I guess this shows how much I'm dying to hear his voice. I love him. I know I always say this and I'm really bad at good vocabulary but simple words like I love you is how I can express my love to you. Yes I would love to show you though my actions but for now let my words show you how. I never knew love would be so sweet. Comparing my first and this, it's a 2 different feeling. He gave me these sense of happiness and joy that no one can give me. It's like receiving a box of chocolate macarons. Every time I see him, I feel extremely happy :) He can really make me feel very blessed. Just by kissing me on the forehead or random kisses will do, and smile will instantly appear. He may not be those typical boyfriend who buy presents and goodies to surprise their girlfriends but I think these are just bonus. Being able to spend time and seeing him is awesome enough. He may not be rich, but simple things he do would make me happy like cooking his carbonara for me, massaging me, hold my hand during a movie and whenever we go. Haha he seems like he is treating me like a baby because he's afraid I'll be lost. He's adorable, I love him :) I know I'm not a very sweet girlfriend. I know a lot of girlfriends will bake sweets for their boy, do handmade presents or cards for their boy and go gyming with their boyfriends. But I promise I'll be the only girl who love you the most and shower you my love. I want to be your unique and fat girlfriend :P I love you tan yi quan, you showed me what's love and this is the sweetest thing ever! Thanks for showering me with your love, thanks for appearing in my life <3
Xmas ExchangeFriday, January 4, 2013 10:16 PM
Xmas exchange with Tetris siao again at Teresa's house! This year is potluck version and i'd prepare profiteroles and brownies for fondue! :D Yiquan and I reach Teresa's house early.... so we camwhore!
   
yiquan fold me this rose!!
  
Our table setting
Around 5+, everyone starts coming in with food. We have honey baked ham, turkey, carbonara, shepherd's pie, baked chicken drumlets, coleslaw and fondue!
         
After dinner, it's time for.... XMAS XCHANGE! Wohoo, so we sit around in one circle and start!
       
I keep on guessing who is my secret santa and it turns out to be my Shifu! Aww.. he gave me a very oversize sweater? Knitted sweater i guess, thanks shifu! And I have to buy present for TAN YI QUAN! Hahaha i was really happy and glad when i picked his name :D
 
I hope he like the present, it's a laptop case. His laptop case is torn.
Okay, after exchanging present back to the table for desserts, FONDUE!
  
We made a last minute card for Ah ting's belated birthday. Because we didnt do anything for her birthday so we made her a card and sang a song :P
  
Had a fun and happy night with my tetris siao, and i'll end this post with our family photo :)
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